How do you know when you are crazy? Do you have to do something decidedly bonkers in order to get carted off, tested and then branded as a raving lunatic?
As i am sure you may have guessed. I am starting to suspect i am crazy.
I am losing my mind... and not in a (I'm at a psychedelic rave tripping balls whilst "engaging" with the laser light display - that would be jokes) good way.
I have really weird impulses that i am starting to just act upon. I guess they were always there. I just fought them off better before.
Item 1: I sniff people. I do this a lot. Ive told this to people in a jokey fashion and they re always like: "oh you" as in you're such a harmless kook. But REALLY, think about it. Is it normal to lean in and sniff complete strangers? No. It's weird.
Plus, Lord only knows what I'm breathing in, Can you inhale Hep C through some one's jumper? I don't want Hep C. Hep C's a BITCH!
Item 2: I talk to myself. Now i know i have said in the past that i am going to embrace this, but should I really? The judging eyes from passers by tell me nope. Yes, i do this in public.
Also, i usually am chastising myself about something, and have full blown arguments with myself, so a stander by would only hear one half - proof to them that i am talking to the voices in my head and making me sound truly unhinged.
I also sing to myself but everyone does that, don't they? Yes, they do.
Item 3: Sometimes i rock back and forth like those psych ward Froot Loops do. I caught myself doing it the other day. This is probably the most alarming news of all.
Maybe i am just weird.
Take from this what you will.
i know how u feel, i really do. it all seems to have calmed down now though, being to stressed with the world causes this it seems. try n make life less stressful in any way that you can, though that is never easy i know.
ReplyDeletewhenever i catch myself hurtling down a trail of negative thought, i try to instead recall the funniest situations / skits / images i have seen recently as a kind of distraction in my head.
ReplyDeletethe irony is that bursting into hysterical laughter whilst alone in public never comes across very well. especially on the tube.
Okay. Sniffing people is weird!! There is no way of sugar coating that one. I'm sorry. I'd be pretty freaked out were i to turn around and find someone taking a big, deep lungful of my aroma.
ReplyDeleteTalking to yourself. Now this is an odd one. I talk to myself. Frequently. Stressed or not i talk to myself - but only when i know i'm alone. Or at least think i know i'm alone. I've been caught before. It feels like a violation. I am not sure if this is a sign of madness or not. It is more common than is let on i believe. It's when you talk to someone else occupying your head that it becomes an issue.
The rocking back and forth - had you had Skittles or any other sugar based treat that day? Sounds like excess energy to me. Or blade lust - either, or. Potato, Potarrrrrto.
As for the touching yourself to pictures of your dad as a young man.....hang on......oh that isn't you....shit...just me....errm...err....um...that is totally normal man. All my mates do it. My Dad is hot!!!